Monday, March 30, 2009
i'm learning alot right now about relationships.....some friends and i were talking about conflict/resolution in relationships, and going beyond the borders of discomfort. it's really hard to do because of the "fear factor"--fear of rejection, fear of hurt, fear of ......you fill in the blank! i am now just realizing the need to be honest in all of my relationships, and i feel like i'm just seeing this reality now....how come noone ever taught me this before? i've allowed my fears to guide me and rule my life....yuck! i'm coming to a new and free place...and boy is it HARD!!! sometimes i feel like i'm internally bleeding, esp when the truth comes out! ouch! how much i need the Lord!! He's there with me and for me. thankyou God! i desire to be true to myself and to my friends, i think that is what a really good friend is, and i pray i get there.