Thursday, June 11, 2009

my boy is getting cuter and bigger by the minute!! he's almost walking, and just got 2 more teeth in the last day or so...sheesh! he only likes to eat what daddy is eating...what can i say? he's a man after his father's heart!

....we had an unfortunate death of a friendship....out of the blue...not prepared, but like death, alot of people aren't prepared. didn't see it coming, so i'm confused and have lots of questions and hurt in my heart. mourning, grieving...talking alot to Dad about it. wow, i can't believe how heavy my heart is....sorry to all around me...don't mean to be the downer, i just have to process this out,...somehow. any ideas? someone suggested i write it all out, all feelings, hurt, joy, loss,'s been helpful....but the feelings remain...oh how i love those friends so stinkin much. seasons come and go......unfortunately friends do too.


  1. hey girl
    your new profile picture is GORGEOUS!! wow - you are a hottie!
    love ya

  2. I'm so sorry for all of the pain this loss is causing. I will continue praying.

    I do have a little idea if you don't mind. I think that you're free to write out feelings, and work out your feelings and take advantage of whatever graces God gives you during these painful times. On the other hand, you belong to God, and your feelings and times of grieving are in His hands. I don't think He'd have you put it upon yourself to "fix" yourself because you are grieving. You aren't busted. It is right to be grieving when something very sad happens. I know it's no fun...very painful, but it won't last forever. It will last much longer than you'd like, but not forever. God will give you the grace to do what you need to do during this, even though you won't feel like you have enough. He will give you the answers and peace you need, in His perfect time. All sorts of conflicting thoughts and ideas come with this kind of pain, and we think that if we can just reason it out that the pain would be gone. I think, in reality, the way our thoughts and feelings feed off each other makes it more complicated than that. The good news is that our loving Father can and will restore all when He has done His perfect work.

    Thanks for listening and for being honest. Love you sis.